Will you Trust Me?

"Will you trust me?" The still quiet voice asks me. "Will you trust me and give it to me?"

"But Lord, what if I give it to you, and you take it away? Or what if you do this or that? I don't want to trust You with this, I can take care of it."

"Will you trust me? Will you trust that if I take that away or do something that you don't want to happen that I'm doing this for you good? That right then it will be hard and a struggle, but in the end you will have learned so much about Me. You will have a deeper relationship with Me. Will you trust me?"

"Lord why? Why do I have to give this to you? Why is it so hard to trust you? Why are you asking me to give up everything to you? Why can't I own something and be in control?"

"Just trust me, Carissa, just trust me. I have a huge, amazing plan for your life, but first you must submit yourself, your entire self into My hands. I know that it's hard, but think of the promises that I have given you. Don't lean on your own limited understanding; trust me and rely on My understanding and My bigger picture of your life."

"Lord, I don't understand, but I'm going to do it. I give it to you. It's yours; do whatever you will with it. Give me grace, because I'm going to want to take it back again. Help me Lord."

Have you ever had a conversation similar to the one above? I

Have and not just once, but many times. It seems that the past mouth or so, God has been digging deep into my heart and pulling stuff out and saying "What about this, you need to give this to me." It would seem that the more I give stuff to God the easier it would be, but no, each time is a struggle, each time I have to go against my natural inclination and obey God. It's hard; but it is something that I need to do.

When God has told me that I have to give something to Him, like my body, or my fear of failure, I start thinking of all the horrible things that could happen if I give Him that. What if I give Him my body and then He decides to let me get hurt or sick in order that I could have a stronger spirit? I don't want to go through that. What if I give Him my fear of failure and then I step out of my comfort zone and then fail miserably? Yes, it would be a much needed lesson, but I don't want to learn that way.

Really it's a matter of trust. Will I trust God? Do I trust Him that everything does work for my good? Will I trust all the promises in the Bible as from God? They are hard questions; and they reveal a lot about how much I really do trust God.

God has asked me many times to give Him different things in my life. Things like fears, relationships and dreams. It's hard, but it is fulfilling and it's obeying God. What about you? What has God asked you to give Him? Have you done it? Or have you pushed it aside and said "No way God, You aren't having that, it's mine." Take a step of faith, give it to God and take God's hand and let Him lead you down the road of life. Trusting that anything that happens will be for your good and God's glory.

Carissa Koehn